I wrote this today and posted it on my personal page and then decided to share on my Facebook Like page. The comments and private messages blew me away, so I wanted to share here. It’s not always rainbows and butterflies so here is my why…
I’m going to get REAL with you for a moment because let’s face it we all get stuck in our own heads at some point. I have battled depression and anxiety and dealt with chronic pain since I was 17 years old. More often than not over the years I have gotten stuck and let my demons defeat me. When faced with difficult decisions and trying times I would revert back to the same destructive behaviors which only lead to more anxiety, depression and pain. It really took hitting rock bottom for me to wake up and realize the changes I NEEDED to make in order to be the mother that my children so desperately needed. My daughter was only 6 years old and suffered from severe anxiety. My son who was non verbal at the time was diagnosed with Apraxia and we were facing a very long and hard battle – a battle that I was nowhere ready to fight. I worked in the medical field and previously in special education. I advocated for people everyday, but did not know where to start to do it for my own children. I wanted to give up, I blamed myself, I wanted to run away, but my children – they needed me to fight for them, to be their strength, their calm and their voice. My mom would always tell me you have the power to control your day. Wake up with the mindset that you are going to conquer the day and BE happy. A strong mind, a strong body and a strong spirit were going to take time to build, but I was determined to do whatever I needed to do to achieve happiness. So over the past year I have worked hard and continue to work everyday to strengthen my mind, my body and my spirit. I have achieve more in the past year and stepped outside my comfort zone and have had amazing results. My little guy works so incredibly hard and is my daily inspiration. Both of my children have become my biggest cheerleaders.
So why I am sharing this? Well because I want YOU to know it’s not all rainbows and butterflies, most days are harder than others and there are still days I want to run away and just break down and cry – BUT I know I am strong enough to fight the battle and that it is worth fighting for EVERYDAY! So wake up and chose to be HAPPY, chose to be FIERCE, chose to FIGHT, chose to INSPIRE.
If I have inspired YOU I would love to hear your WHY!